Ah long time, no write. Lets see...took a 14 hour train ride home to NoDak. Em got picked up in Miller town and we rode the train together. We sat in the lounge car most of the night, watching movies and chatting. Made the ride go faster having someone to talk to and hang out. In Minny, a bunch of drunk Vikings (losing team) fans got on the train so we got to listen to that for a few hours...highly amusing. We made a few "train friends" along the way...they were good guys.
Got into NoDak around 540 am..dragged my dad out of bed to come get me...he was so growly he didnt even give me a hug!! hahaa!! Then it was a good week of hanging out at home, seeing friends and eating good meals. We drove to my grandma's on Saturday and had Christmas Eve with my mom's side. Wild night...20 people, 4 small children under the age of 4 all screaming and hollering and crying...aahh, good times. Christmas Day was spent at the farm with my dad's side. It was great to see my grandparents again. Grandpa looks really good after he quit the chemo and he's getting some of his hair back. My psycho aunt was there...made for an interesting, tension filled afternoon (we haven't seen her in 3 years) so yeah...we survived anyhow, albeit very diffcult.
Took the train back to Chicago...a long 17 hours. Got back in before Rumba called so I took all my shit back to my apartment and waited for his call. His flight was a half hour late and he lost a piece of his luggage!! Damn Air Canada!!! So he was messing around with that. We met at a Blue Line station here in downtown...ah it was so good to see him again. Came back here, went grocery shopping, ordered pizza and exchanged gifts. My honey did good; unfortunately, my 'big gift' was in the other piece of luggage....sooo hopefully it shows up soon.
On Tuesday we went to the Field Museum for the day. Really cool museum, kinda spendy but we spent the whole day there so it was worth it I think. Wandered around downtown and came back for dinner.
On Wednesday we slept in way late and went to a Chicago Blackhawks game. They were playing the St Louis Blues. I had never been to a pro hockey game before so it was loads of fun..great to be amongst hockey fans again. They lost 2-1 which was unfortunate because the Blues are at the bottom of the league this year, but it was still a good time.
After the game, we were walking from one bus to another when I stumbled off the curb in front of the Daley Plaza and fell. Didn't see that it was a curved sidewalk. Sprained my ankle and landed on my knees. Scrapped the shit out of my knees and my ankle was swelled up to a baseball. I didn't break it thank god; the swelling has gone down, but its really black and blue and my knees are scrapped open. So Rumba has been a good man to me; he carried me back to my apartment, got me iced up and comfortable and has been helping me around the apartment. Today he made lunch, washed the dishes and went to the pharmacy to get me a bandage. He hasn't complained about sitting around all day while I rest and stay off my feet. Ah, thats love..what a good feeling.
So now the rest of our week is up in the air...we had plans but now that I am not very mobile, they might be changing. We were going to go dancing on NYE but well...more like hobbling now. ;) We'll survive. Its wonderful having him here with me, thats all that matters right now.
An injured but happy Tiger.
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Year 2005
*JANUARY*
1. Did you have a new year's resolution this year? No
2. Who kissed you at midnight? Didn't have a kiss at midnight
3. Have you ever been to times square to watch the ball drop? No, but I would like to someday.
*FEBRUARY*
1. Who was your valentine? The Killers
2. What did your valentine get you? I bought myself the Killers cd
3. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class? Yeah and it was a huge project to make the valentines boxes...one year I had a piano and another year I had a Snoopy doghouse. My two favorites for sure.
*MARCH*
1. Are you Irish? Yes on my mom's side
2. Did you wear green on st. patty's day? Yes
3. What did you do for st. patty's day? Deciding if I should go to DC or Chicago
*APRIL*
1. Do you like the rain? Yes, love it.
2. Did you play an april fool's joke on anyone this year? No
3. Did you get tons of candy on easter? I always buy the Hershey's Eggs for about 2 months...mmm chocolate...they're like great big m & m's
*MAY*
1. What's your favorite kind of flower? Stargazer lilies and roses
2. Finish the phrase: april showers bring may flowers, what do may showers bring? floods
3. What would you think of as a spring color? green
*JUNE*
1. What year did you graduate from school? 2000, 2004
2. Did you go on any vacations last June? Yes I went to Chicago and Ontario
*JULY*
1. What did you do on the 4th of July? I was in Canada watching the fireworks on TV
2. Did you go on any vacations during this month? Yes I was in Canada for the first part and then Em, Nelle and I went to Dave in Wisconsin...woo road trip!
*AUGUST*
1. Did you do anything special to end off your summer? I moved to Chicago
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '05? My trip to Ontario to meet the Fam and the Dave Matthews Band Bitchin Road Trip 2005.
3. Did you go to the beach a lot? Just when I was in Ontario at the lake there...not really a beach.
*SEPTEMBER*
1. Did you attend school/college in '05? Yes I started my first semester of graduate school.
2. Who is/was your favorite teacher? I've had so many...probably Robert in college, Mr. Mord in high school. I have many favorites.
3. Did you like fall better than summer? I don't think I've ever experienced a "fall" until I moved to Chicago as NoDak usually goes right from summer to winter...but Chicago's fall was nice overall.
*OCTOBER*
1. What was your favorite halloween costume ever? Pippi Longstocking
2. What's your favorite candy? M & M's...duh ;)
3. What did you dress up like this year? An overworked grad student studying for midterms
*NOVEMBER*
1. Whose house did you go to for thanksgiving? Ontario with Rumba's family
2. Do you like stuffing? Yuck!!
3. What are you thankful for? My family, Rumba and his family, my friends, my success in school so far.
*DECEMBER*
1. Do you celebrate christmas? Yes
2. Have you ever been kissed under a mistletoe? No
3. What do you want this year for christmas? I don't have anything special on my list this year. I get to spend the New Year with the CanadiEn and thats good enough for me.
4. What's the best present you ever got for christmas? Hard to decide
5. Do you like cold weather? Yes I do, I very seldom complain when its winter and cold.
*OVERALL*1. How would you rate your year? Oh gosh..a good man, lots of decisions, changes, moving, learning about life, the importance of family and successes and frustrations all along the way...I give it a 9.
**Thanks Liz**
1. Did you have a new year's resolution this year? No
2. Who kissed you at midnight? Didn't have a kiss at midnight
3. Have you ever been to times square to watch the ball drop? No, but I would like to someday.
*FEBRUARY*
1. Who was your valentine? The Killers
2. What did your valentine get you? I bought myself the Killers cd
3. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class? Yeah and it was a huge project to make the valentines boxes...one year I had a piano and another year I had a Snoopy doghouse. My two favorites for sure.
*MARCH*
1. Are you Irish? Yes on my mom's side
2. Did you wear green on st. patty's day? Yes
3. What did you do for st. patty's day? Deciding if I should go to DC or Chicago
*APRIL*
1. Do you like the rain? Yes, love it.
2. Did you play an april fool's joke on anyone this year? No
3. Did you get tons of candy on easter? I always buy the Hershey's Eggs for about 2 months...mmm chocolate...they're like great big m & m's
*MAY*
1. What's your favorite kind of flower? Stargazer lilies and roses
2. Finish the phrase: april showers bring may flowers, what do may showers bring? floods
3. What would you think of as a spring color? green
*JUNE*
1. What year did you graduate from school? 2000, 2004
2. Did you go on any vacations last June? Yes I went to Chicago and Ontario
*JULY*
1. What did you do on the 4th of July? I was in Canada watching the fireworks on TV
2. Did you go on any vacations during this month? Yes I was in Canada for the first part and then Em, Nelle and I went to Dave in Wisconsin...woo road trip!
*AUGUST*
1. Did you do anything special to end off your summer? I moved to Chicago
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '05? My trip to Ontario to meet the Fam and the Dave Matthews Band Bitchin Road Trip 2005.
3. Did you go to the beach a lot? Just when I was in Ontario at the lake there...not really a beach.
*SEPTEMBER*
1. Did you attend school/college in '05? Yes I started my first semester of graduate school.
2. Who is/was your favorite teacher? I've had so many...probably Robert in college, Mr. Mord in high school. I have many favorites.
3. Did you like fall better than summer? I don't think I've ever experienced a "fall" until I moved to Chicago as NoDak usually goes right from summer to winter...but Chicago's fall was nice overall.
*OCTOBER*
1. What was your favorite halloween costume ever? Pippi Longstocking
2. What's your favorite candy? M & M's...duh ;)
3. What did you dress up like this year? An overworked grad student studying for midterms
*NOVEMBER*
1. Whose house did you go to for thanksgiving? Ontario with Rumba's family
2. Do you like stuffing? Yuck!!
3. What are you thankful for? My family, Rumba and his family, my friends, my success in school so far.
*DECEMBER*
1. Do you celebrate christmas? Yes
2. Have you ever been kissed under a mistletoe? No
3. What do you want this year for christmas? I don't have anything special on my list this year. I get to spend the New Year with the CanadiEn and thats good enough for me.
4. What's the best present you ever got for christmas? Hard to decide
5. Do you like cold weather? Yes I do, I very seldom complain when its winter and cold.
*OVERALL*1. How would you rate your year? Oh gosh..a good man, lots of decisions, changes, moving, learning about life, the importance of family and successes and frustrations all along the way...I give it a 9.
**Thanks Liz**
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Cuz Mama...Mama, I'm Comin Home...
Yes the day has arrived where I will pack up a weeks worth of clothes and Christmas gifties, throw my arm in the air for a cab, stand in line at Amtrak and fight for a forward facing seat and an electricity outlet for my 14 (if on time) hour journey back to the homeland. Woo hoo, I'm really excited. I'm starting to love the City a lot but there is nothing like home and nothing like the country. I never really had an issue with NoDak except that its uber boring at times. But its true that you don't appreciate home until you cant go home for a few months. And there is something to be said for the peace and quiet and tranquil beauty of the country.
I get to go home, eat decent homecooked meals, chat with my mom, cuddle with Gizmo and chase after my little cousins that try to get under the Christmas tree. I get to drive a car and not ride a bus and not worry about bad smells from stinky people (though I'm sure the sugar beets and french fries will make up for it...ahh home). I get to reasonably go on a christmas cookie binge before I really really get down to business and lose 70 lbs in 2006. And really enjoy my break from school and get refreshed for the next semester of work.
If I don't update between now and when I get back to Chicago, I do hope ya'll have a Merry Christmas, Kwanzaa, Hannakuh..whatever you celebrate. Hope Santa brings you good stuff and you have a good time with family and friends. See you all on the flipside.
Ta ta!
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Nipper Candy-Lips
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Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
A Reason To Just Work and Worry Only About Yourself
So I work at a touristy shop that sells shotglasses and Chicago t-shirts and such. Definitely not my life's ambition but for now its very stress free and it allows me to concentrate on school. I work with younger 18-20 year old girls mostly and my boss who is about 35. Today I found out that one of the girls quit.
And she quit because she was boosting merchandise out of the store and the mangers have caught on to her antics. I figure she stole around 500-600 bucks worth of stuff. She was a keyholder and often closed or opened the store so she had the opportunity to do it. As is with any job, there is a lot of gossip and such that runs through the store. I have in my infinite wisdom and working in other high gossip environments learned to keep myself away from it and out of it in any way I can because gossip is like poison: It kills. People often tell me shit but I never repeat it and I don't care enough to remember it later anyways. I think people tell me just because I'm naturally a good listener even though they know I don't like to hear it. So anyhow, this girl was spreading a lot of garbage around about the assistant manager who I get along with very well and trying to get the a.m's job in the process.
I never trusted this girl and told the assistant manager this. And now its all come out about this girl boosting clothes and other stuff out of the store and that she's been spreading lies about everybody and how they work to the manager.
I hate being right.
Gossip is poison folks. Just do what you gotta do to work and go home. Who cares if that makes you less liked than everybody else? At least you'll have a job...and your integrity.
And she quit because she was boosting merchandise out of the store and the mangers have caught on to her antics. I figure she stole around 500-600 bucks worth of stuff. She was a keyholder and often closed or opened the store so she had the opportunity to do it. As is with any job, there is a lot of gossip and such that runs through the store. I have in my infinite wisdom and working in other high gossip environments learned to keep myself away from it and out of it in any way I can because gossip is like poison: It kills. People often tell me shit but I never repeat it and I don't care enough to remember it later anyways. I think people tell me just because I'm naturally a good listener even though they know I don't like to hear it. So anyhow, this girl was spreading a lot of garbage around about the assistant manager who I get along with very well and trying to get the a.m's job in the process.
I never trusted this girl and told the assistant manager this. And now its all come out about this girl boosting clothes and other stuff out of the store and that she's been spreading lies about everybody and how they work to the manager.
I hate being right.
Gossip is poison folks. Just do what you gotta do to work and go home. Who cares if that makes you less liked than everybody else? At least you'll have a job...and your integrity.
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Big City Girls
My fabulous friend Emily came down from Milwaukee on Friday!! It was so great to see her again and have a few days of craziness. We went to the new Harry Potter movie...aaah happiness...such a great movie!! And did a bit of window shopping along Michigan Avenue. Then we went to a holiday party at the Embassy my school was hosting. Eh...its the typical holiday party. Lots of schmoozing and people you don't know. There was supposed to be free booze for 2 hours and they cut if off after an hour and half!! We got one stinkin drink because the lines were so long. The drinks were 10 bucks a piece so we didnt get anymore after that first drink!!! Even the soda was 5 bucks. They had a DJ so there was a bit of dancing but he played mostly techno/electronica so that was no good either. All in all, it was nice to get dressed up and have something to do for a few hours. I only knew a handful of my classmates and the rest were people from the other programs. Everbody looked nice..a few were questionably dressed but everybody seemed to be having a good time. Had the alcohol been a little cheaper we would have stayed a bit longer.
The whole night made me think about once again that I am just a humble small town girl and can't live up to the lifestyle that the city demands. The swank clothing and surroundings and cash flow just aint happening and I don't think it ever will. I'm more comfortable in nice but less expensive clothing and my life's ambition isnt necessarily to be "seen" with the pretty folk. Oh well. Me and the CanadiEn will do just fine in the North away from the cities but close enough to visit every now and then.
Em and I might end up on the same train going home so that will be cool too. And we decided that we really miss the Rock despite the scantily clad hosebeasts that hang out there. Its nice to get a beer, or in my case whiseky, for cheap and not pay 25 dollar cover charges. So we're thinking we're going to whoop it up when we get home.
Its so weird being able to relax and not think about classes and reading and papers. I'm ready to go home and see my family and friends too. I didn't realize how lonely it gets here until Emily was here and we went out and did stuff instead of just sitting here.
Well I'm off for more...well nothing really....just going to sit here and doing...nothing!!!
Friday, December 09, 2005
First Semester Is History
Yay! Took my last exam today and everything else is handed in as well. My first semester of graduate school is officially complete. Man it feels good to be down one semester. I'm pretty sure I'll have high passing grades...woo hoo for me.
The next few weeks are pretty exciting too. Emmy Lou is coming to Chicago tomorrow...look out Chi-Town, it could get ugly! I'm really excited, we haven't seen each other since August. We might hit up the school holiday party on Saturday, free booze...yay!! The Sioux play the Gophers this weekend. Might have to find a radio to listen in on the big sweep of them stickin Gophers. I work 3 more shifts and then I get to go home. I'm taking the train on December 18th and should be into town on December 19th...long ride, about 14 hours if on time but its a nice ride too. Will get to be home for a week and see family and such and then on the 26th Rumba comes to Chicago!! Yay!!! I'm happy for him because that day is his birthday and we'll get to spend a good long week together.
Major snow tonight. I got home around 2:30pm today and thats about when i started. By 6:00 we had about 5 inches on the ground. Right now we have about 7 inches. I'm so glad I don't have a car or long commute. Some folks were on the Ike, the Kennedy and the Dan Ryan for 2-3 hours tonight...daamn thats a long time just to drive 15 miles. 15 miles!!! I could walk it faster than they were driving it. Thats insanity. Plus a plane crashed at Midway tonight. Overshot the runway and hit a few cars in the neighborhood. A 6 year old boy died, the car he was in was underneath the plane. Scary..this is why I absolutely HATE flying. Hate it...hate it...
K. Hope is doing GREAT. Her surgery went well and she's progressing well. She may be able to come home soon which is great. Hopefully in time for the holidays. She still has a long road ahead but she's a fighter. Must be the red hair..hehe!
Wrote up some Christmas cards tonight to get rid of my 37 cent stamps. Public service announcement: Stamps go up to 39 cents starting in January...ya know...why don't they just make it an even 40 cents? I mean REALLY...
Other random ramblings:
I wonder how many homeless die every winter?
Why do people raise their voice when talking to foreigners?
Why do people stare at other people when boarding the bus?
How can women wear spike heels in the winter and not fall?
What is that nasty smell when I walk on Kinzie?
When is someone going to clean up the smeared shit that is near the parking garage?
How can I get into a club without looking like a poseur?
Where can I get a little black dress that isnt too expensive?
How come I'm so anxious to get married and have kids?
I need to sleep...nighty night.
The next few weeks are pretty exciting too. Emmy Lou is coming to Chicago tomorrow...look out Chi-Town, it could get ugly! I'm really excited, we haven't seen each other since August. We might hit up the school holiday party on Saturday, free booze...yay!! The Sioux play the Gophers this weekend. Might have to find a radio to listen in on the big sweep of them stickin Gophers. I work 3 more shifts and then I get to go home. I'm taking the train on December 18th and should be into town on December 19th...long ride, about 14 hours if on time but its a nice ride too. Will get to be home for a week and see family and such and then on the 26th Rumba comes to Chicago!! Yay!!! I'm happy for him because that day is his birthday and we'll get to spend a good long week together.
Major snow tonight. I got home around 2:30pm today and thats about when i started. By 6:00 we had about 5 inches on the ground. Right now we have about 7 inches. I'm so glad I don't have a car or long commute. Some folks were on the Ike, the Kennedy and the Dan Ryan for 2-3 hours tonight...daamn thats a long time just to drive 15 miles. 15 miles!!! I could walk it faster than they were driving it. Thats insanity. Plus a plane crashed at Midway tonight. Overshot the runway and hit a few cars in the neighborhood. A 6 year old boy died, the car he was in was underneath the plane. Scary..this is why I absolutely HATE flying. Hate it...hate it...
K. Hope is doing GREAT. Her surgery went well and she's progressing well. She may be able to come home soon which is great. Hopefully in time for the holidays. She still has a long road ahead but she's a fighter. Must be the red hair..hehe!
Wrote up some Christmas cards tonight to get rid of my 37 cent stamps. Public service announcement: Stamps go up to 39 cents starting in January...ya know...why don't they just make it an even 40 cents? I mean REALLY...
Other random ramblings:
I wonder how many homeless die every winter?
Why do people raise their voice when talking to foreigners?
Why do people stare at other people when boarding the bus?
How can women wear spike heels in the winter and not fall?
What is that nasty smell when I walk on Kinzie?
When is someone going to clean up the smeared shit that is near the parking garage?
How can I get into a club without looking like a poseur?
Where can I get a little black dress that isnt too expensive?
How come I'm so anxious to get married and have kids?
I need to sleep...nighty night.
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
"Brooke Is"
Brooke is rather a pre-war poet. (I hate poetry)
Brooke is pregnant. (God I hope not...)
Brooke is thrilled. ( You damn skippy)
Brooke is the third child of the Greenbergs. (Who the hell are they?)
Brooke is the Vice Chairperson for Awareness of Rape and Incest. (That sounds important!)
Brooke is taken home by Peter Thompson. (Who the hell is he?)
Brooke is the third book, in the 7th series of V.C. Andrews novels. (Oooh VC...scandalous)
Brooke is the daughter of a minor actress. (Really? Thats news to me)
Brooke is a delightful 7 year old. (I was once..)
Brooke is pregnant. (God I hope not...)
Brooke is thrilled. ( You damn skippy)
Brooke is the third child of the Greenbergs. (Who the hell are they?)
Brooke is the Vice Chairperson for Awareness of Rape and Incest. (That sounds important!)
Brooke is taken home by Peter Thompson. (Who the hell is he?)
Brooke is the third book, in the 7th series of V.C. Andrews novels. (Oooh VC...scandalous)
Brooke is the daughter of a minor actress. (Really? Thats news to me)
Brooke is a delightful 7 year old. (I was once..)
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Rant: To Speak In An Angry Or Violent Manner
Damn...damnit...fucking shit. Yes, I said fuck and I said I wouldn't say fuck on my blog but I'm gonna say it again...FUCK.
Eat shit and die. Get a spork, eat my ass...etc etc and all those other fun things I like to say when I'm really pissed off and lose sense of politeness and political correctness. Fuck em both at this point, I'm raging pissed.
I have a cousin that is at present only 4 days old. She has an underdeveloped heart, something we have known about for about 5 months before her birth. The risks she is facing are life threatening and difficult to handle. Our family has been blessed to not have many problems health wise and such and now this year its all just fell on top of us. Guess we only were lucky for so long eh? As such, nobody really knows how to deal with all this but we all can pretty much say that its about K. Hope and not us. We're adults, we'll manage, we'll carry on. This is a young baby...we're supposed to be handling it for her.
So this beautiful baby girl is fighting for her life and her parents and brothers and sister are there by her side worrying and wishing and praying. My uncle's parents and my grandparents are down there with them, taking care of the other 3 kids. The rest of us are staying connected through phones and websites and prayers. And what is the focus of this situation right now???
Selfishness.
Thats right. Its all about money and winter trips and not at all about family and support and this delicate member of the family. I want to slap the hell out of these people but being 500 miles away, I can't. Probably a good thing...its not so wise to go beatin on your grandparents I suppose. But god damn. Can you fucking get past yourselves and look at the real big more important picture here?
Oh for shits sake...
I can say that I am truly ashamed to be a member of this family right now. You would think they would get their priorities straight and realize whats more important. A fucking innocent LIFE is on the line here. We could be attending yet another damn funeral around Christmas time (we've had 2 other funerals this time of year. Both die on the 21st, both funerals the 26th...Christmas sucks). And a baby's funeral will be a helluva lot more painful than those two others, as much as those were awful to endure. Can you imagine? They say parents shouldn't bury their kids...you damn skippy. Especially newborns.
We don't all have to gather and sing Kum ba fucking ya here and we're all goin to deal with it in different ways and we can't take it away or bargain with God or give them enough money to help pay for the costs....but goddamnit we can all get past our petty lives...bills, work, trips, tests, school, stupid arguments and be the way a family is supposed to be regardless of the circumstances.
Dear Santa,
My name is Tiger. Forget the material stuff. I could give a damn. What I really want for Christmas is a healthy cousin, an unselfish family, a happy family gathering. Where nobody is pissy and fighting, where the kids can open their presents with glee and the adults can feel blessed to have sown such a great kin.
Dear God,
Bless my family and forgive my dirty, shameful, obscene mouth. Hold us all in the palm of your hand and grant us your grace and presence. Give us peace and strength, especially to K. Hope. Your son Jesus blessed the children. Bless K. Hope. In your Son's name, Amen.
END RANT.
Eat shit and die. Get a spork, eat my ass...etc etc and all those other fun things I like to say when I'm really pissed off and lose sense of politeness and political correctness. Fuck em both at this point, I'm raging pissed.
I have a cousin that is at present only 4 days old. She has an underdeveloped heart, something we have known about for about 5 months before her birth. The risks she is facing are life threatening and difficult to handle. Our family has been blessed to not have many problems health wise and such and now this year its all just fell on top of us. Guess we only were lucky for so long eh? As such, nobody really knows how to deal with all this but we all can pretty much say that its about K. Hope and not us. We're adults, we'll manage, we'll carry on. This is a young baby...we're supposed to be handling it for her.
So this beautiful baby girl is fighting for her life and her parents and brothers and sister are there by her side worrying and wishing and praying. My uncle's parents and my grandparents are down there with them, taking care of the other 3 kids. The rest of us are staying connected through phones and websites and prayers. And what is the focus of this situation right now???
Selfishness.
Thats right. Its all about money and winter trips and not at all about family and support and this delicate member of the family. I want to slap the hell out of these people but being 500 miles away, I can't. Probably a good thing...its not so wise to go beatin on your grandparents I suppose. But god damn. Can you fucking get past yourselves and look at the real big more important picture here?
Oh for shits sake...
I can say that I am truly ashamed to be a member of this family right now. You would think they would get their priorities straight and realize whats more important. A fucking innocent LIFE is on the line here. We could be attending yet another damn funeral around Christmas time (we've had 2 other funerals this time of year. Both die on the 21st, both funerals the 26th...Christmas sucks). And a baby's funeral will be a helluva lot more painful than those two others, as much as those were awful to endure. Can you imagine? They say parents shouldn't bury their kids...you damn skippy. Especially newborns.
We don't all have to gather and sing Kum ba fucking ya here and we're all goin to deal with it in different ways and we can't take it away or bargain with God or give them enough money to help pay for the costs....but goddamnit we can all get past our petty lives...bills, work, trips, tests, school, stupid arguments and be the way a family is supposed to be regardless of the circumstances.
Dear Santa,
My name is Tiger. Forget the material stuff. I could give a damn. What I really want for Christmas is a healthy cousin, an unselfish family, a happy family gathering. Where nobody is pissy and fighting, where the kids can open their presents with glee and the adults can feel blessed to have sown such a great kin.
Dear God,
Bless my family and forgive my dirty, shameful, obscene mouth. Hold us all in the palm of your hand and grant us your grace and presence. Give us peace and strength, especially to K. Hope. Your son Jesus blessed the children. Bless K. Hope. In your Son's name, Amen.
END RANT.
Saturday, December 03, 2005
"Thank Heaven For Little Girls, They Grow Up In The Most Delightful Way"
Hope...sometimes its all you have in life. My newest cousin was born on December 1st and she's a little redheaded angel. An angel with a special heart.
We can never be sure why God lays out his plans in the smallest angels and gives them so many trials to overcome. I think in K. Hope's case its to bring our family together and get our shit together. Some are pretty selfish and think only for themselves instead of this little life that is fighting to hang on.
Here's to the doctors that are keeping her alive and fighting for her too.
For those who hope in the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like Eagles...Isaiah 40:31
We can never be sure why God lays out his plans in the smallest angels and gives them so many trials to overcome. I think in K. Hope's case its to bring our family together and get our shit together. Some are pretty selfish and think only for themselves instead of this little life that is fighting to hang on.
Here's to the doctors that are keeping her alive and fighting for her too.
For those who hope in the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like Eagles...Isaiah 40:31
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Bus Driving Santa
All hail to Route #156. I think it was the first substantial snow today that made Santa board the bus and drive the commuters to the Loop today.Speaking of first snow, everybody got a little nuts in their driving today. Lots of accidents and such. One dude even drove into the windows of a hot dog shop in the Loop today. Crazy bitches...slow your ass down.
No need for the plows today and they don't shovel sidewalks here. People just walk and pack it down and create ice...yesssssss...I cant WAIT to go sliding on my ass or slip as I disembark the bus.
In other news, the lights are up and the tree is trimmed in the foyer of my building. Its quite lovely and festive. I don't have the space for holiday stuff in my little room so I'll go without for now. When Rumba and I get a house...oh its on...there will be lights and garland and flowers and candy all over the place.
All major assignments have been finished and handed in. Woo hoo. I had my final interview for my interviewing class yesterday and I have five final exams next week. Overall, its a lot of work but I'm not sweating it yet. I can only take one exam at a time so thats my study approach as well. I can't believe my first semester of grad school is over.
My aunt is due to have her baby sometime in the next few hours or day. Here's hoping everything goes alright and Baby Kennedy's condition isn't as bad as intially suggested by the doctors.
Now that I've returned to the States I am in a funk. This always happens after Rumba and I have spent some time together and then have to be seperated again. Thank god its only 3 weeks this time. This time is the hangover of a long distance relationship. One goes nuts and binges on love and affection and good times...and then its a sudden cutoff and the lethargy, headaches and heartache lingers for a few days until the system gets back on track.
Ah Chicago, how noisy and huge you are. May my time in the country come sooner than it seems now. NoDak I'm coming home.
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