So tonight, my boyfriend and I are chatting and we start talking about immigration again. He talked to his parents today about it and was looking for suggestions from them. His mom was like "yeah it would be easier if you were married," his dad was like "whoa whoa whoa, stop the train." haaaaa!! They were teasing him of course because they know how serious we are. They ended up having a really good conversation and told him to talk to a few friends that have been through the process.
And I don't know what happened but I just lost it emotionally. I started focusing on the stress of the situation. The huge sacrifice I am making in moving up there, the uncertain timelines, the paperwork, the fees, the confusion, not knowing the jobs in Canada, how exactly we are going to go about applying...sigh. I made bad assumptions about his attitude towards the whole thing and I made the mistake of taking it out on him, which wasn't fair to him. I didn't mean to but thats how he took it. So...we really talked it out, he got me to look at the positive and we worked it out.
He has this amazing way of making me feel better without getting upset himself. He was obviously frustrated with me. I'm trying really hard not to get so stressed out over this and he is a saint for putting up with me.
Now that I am refocused and rational, I can see the positives outweigh all the stress. We're going to be together in the end!!! Regardless of the situation and what may come of it, we'll be together. We have long term plans and they involve each other. I have to keep that in mind...that he cares for me, loves me and wants me forever.
The distance is so hard. Its the hardest part of it all. We can't be together right now because of our school commitments. He can't come here, knock me over the head, and then pull me close to make me feel better. Sigh...someday.
Feeling better now...what a great man I love.
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